weixuan

2009-12-02T06:17:00.002+08:00

Hopped. (:

Decided to open up my link..

www.clwx.blogspot.com

2009-10-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

Came home from camp yesterday. Had alot of fun in camp. The food in camp really sucks. But I really don't understand why I still gained weight after the camp. Gosh. Hmm. How should we start. I really hate myself for forgetting to bring my camera to camp. Learned alot from the camp.

Shall stop here ba. Don't know what to blog .

Label: Confused

2009-10-07T02:01:00.002+08:00

Its been a long long time ever since I've blogged. There were so many stuffs that happened. There were so many things that impacted me so so much. Life wasn't smooth for me. I had so much to struggle. Hope were given and taken away as usual. But this time I didn't cry much its only my heart that kept aching non stop. It's been 3days ever since you've left me. I still couldn't let go. My heart is aching more and more. I kept thinking what went wrong till I found out from others and realised that you are nothing but a big flirt who cheats money and feelings. Even if after knowing the truth my feelings didn't fade off. Knowing how much effort I've put in. It really hit me so hard till I couldn't cry out anymore even when I think about it. Buddy was there for me to keep asking me to forget him but I still couldn't let go no matter how much I tried. Ben was there for me during all these while. Thanks.

Decided to stay single after all these hit me. It was such a big blow for me. Maybe like what Ben told me. It wasn't the right time for me to have a relationship. I guess he was right. Buddy said he wasn't the guy for me. Is he not? I kept doubting myself. Gosh. I feel so pain now.

I kept thinking and thinking. I asked Ben. Is looks really that important? He said no. He kept insisting that love will overcome all considerations. Is that true in this society now? I doubted so much on it. I believe that looks is everything. Without looks it's completely nothing. I have given up on love. I don't wish to believe in love again. I doubt I will again..

Label: Lost. Really lost this time

2009-09-02T16:02:00.002+08:00

New blog created. (: I'll be posting there from now. Yups.

HMM~!Heard something bout me worss. If there's nothing to warn bout you then why would I even warn my friend? Scared? Girl, last time you and Clement stead before I stead with him. When I was with Clement you was with Bao. There's a perioud u and Bao break then u tell Clement that you still love him? You think I don't know? I still will remember this clearly. Ehh, girl.. You and Terrence already break up. Why bother bout him and Ahqi de relationship? Why not waste the extra time and care for your boyfriend instead when you would choose him over Terrence? I doubt I did say anything wrong. Cause it is you who choose to leave Terrence first. Seeing you keep changing couple in audi? You should know what impression it gives people ba? I know you have my blog link thats why I'm posting here for you to see.

Label: Carefree life from now. (:

2009-08-27T15:42:00.002+08:00

I've created a new blog and I'll be posting there most of the time. Only invited readers are allowed. Sorry.

To my friends:
My dear friends, you people might not be able to contact me from now onwards. Regardless of Audition, Msn, Phone or any other things. You might not be able to look for me. I'll come back when I'm feeling better or when I feel like appearing. Sorry for everything.

To Katherine:
Kat, I might not be going for your birthday chalet. I'll pass you your present some other time. Sorry.

2009-08-25T14:16:00.002+08:00

Today Babyboy woke me up at 6.3oam as usual. Talked to him till 7.15am then go prepare for school le. Today very lazy. Dragged till 8.10am then leave house. Was so happy cause I thought I'm able to play Audi with lappy. Bag was super heavy cause of the charger. Reached school and went to Conference room still happy happy plugging in the stupid charger. But end up cannot charge. NEVERMIND~ I on my lappy thinking internet at least can surf net and go Audi with the laggy internet. What happened? The fking internet only able to connect to local. I was like happy for nothing the whole day? %!@#$ Went down to bus stop to meet Wenqian to smoke. Then slack awhile and waited for Sheilia to come. Met her at Cafe 1 at about 12pm. Asked Sheilia help me calculate my relationship. Was rather happy with the outcome. (: I also know how to make okay~ But can't make ourself so asked her to do for me. Nxt time who want check their love relationship with whoever. Can ask me oh..~! Hahas..

After lunch came up to computer lab with Sheilia & Wenqian. Wenqian very poor thing sia. Cannot come in. Cause she not from Health Science School de. The room now very cold sia. The aircon machiam don't need electricity to work one. Machiam winter sia. *shivers*

Label: When will you be mine?

2009-08-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

Its been a week ever since i last blogged. Realising that I've forgotten about him. Accepted a new life being in school everyday. Trying to commit till the last day of attachment. Actually I did feel glad that we broke up. Been to school for the last few days. I'm a good girl okay?

2o&21Aug'o9 [Thurs&Fri]
Went to school as usual. Forgotten if its Thurs or Fri went to meet Mosa for dinner at Bedok then headed home. School is boring.

22Aug'o9 [Saturday]
Went to meet Hao, Larry, Cheeho, Ice and Shindo bro. To settle Shindo bro's thing. Settle finish went to see Ice and Micheal play Billard. Headed to Whampoa with Cheeho and Micheal. Slacked there. Cheeho's friend all dam joker. Was laughing throughout the night. Headed home at 10.30pm. Was talking to Babyboy. Admitting that I've fell deeper.

23Aug'o9 [Sunday]
Stayed at home as usual on Sunday. Was playing audi with FAM members. Slacked till 2.3oam till I finally feel tired and went to bed.

24Aug'o9 [Monday,today]
Good girls like me go to school. Babyboy gave me a morning call. Talked to him till 7.15am then went to bathe and prepare for school. Reached school. As slack as before. Was sleeping in the lab. Went to meet Hao, Larry, Ice and Shindo bro at Geylang. Larry and Ice went to play Billard. So we slacked there and talk. Headed home after they finished playing. That's all for today. (:

Label: I love my Babyboy.

2009-08-19T09:04:00.002+08:00

Have a sudden urge to blog before I go to school. Okay I know I'm late again as usual. I'm supposed to reach school at 8.30am and yet I'm still at home taking my own sweet time. Heh~ Going down to Speedy first to meet Andrea for breakfast before going school. Gona take a bus down to school. Can sleep! (:

Was on the phone with Shindo bro last night. Talking about our things. I think Shindo bro dam cute sia. I don't know how to say la serious. Hahas~ This Saturday should be going down Grandlink to meet them for guild outing bahss. Yupp. Should be able I guess?

Actually was thinking about some other stuffs. I'm not sure if it's serious or not. It somehow can be considered serious but it might be considered as not serious. Aiyoh~! Brain very messy. Gona sort out things le la. I better use tape label well then arrange them well on shelves le la. Grr.. Okay I know I'm crapping. Still in the half asleep mode now. Seriously dam tired.

Label: Tired

2009-08-18T02:29:00.002+08:00

Damn Asiasoft. They changed the whole template till I can't change my game password. Stupid. How to change my password!?? CAN SOMEONE HELP ME? *SOS*

Label: Pissed

2009-08-18T02:19:00.002+08:00

We broke up at 12Aug'09 12.30am. Was really sad when we broke up. But realising so much after we broke up. I felt that I don't feel as pain as before. The pain subsided. Much thanks to those who were there for me. I appreciate alot.

To those who were there for me:-

Baby Cheryl: Thanks for telling me about what kind of person he is and about that girl. Thanks for siding me and be there for me when I had no idea what to do.

Red Taoeh: Thanks for what u did on Friday. The thought of helping me to talk to him. Though it didn't help at all but I appreciate. His this kind of pattern will never change de. So even if anyone else talk to him. He's still the same.

Larry Di: Thanks for being there for me to console me and cheering me up. Thanks for accompanying me this 2days.

Ivan Old Man: Thanks for helping us to end this thing once and for all. Stopping the pain in me helps alot. Though I know he did still lied when you were questioning him. At least it let me see clearly what kind of guy he is. Seeing his true colour helps alot.

Others who I didn't state but who did help me. Thanks for siding me and helping me to get out of the trap. Love you peeps. (:

Label: Much appreciated for the things you guys did for me.

2009-08-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

I gave my heart to you. Loved you whole heartedly and yet I'm being treated that way. I really don't know what to do anymore. Being treated like trash. The feeling sucks. I guess you don't really love me. Then why did you even asked be to be ur girlfriend? Why did you treat me so good in the beginning? Are all guys like that? Treat girls good before getting them. After owning them we girls are being treated like trash? I can't accept the fact.

Larry di was there for me yesterday and today all these while. Cheering me up and finding ways to make me happy. Thanks di~ Love you. I know you care for me. Not only di asked me to leave him. Everyone else too. I'm really lost. I don't know what to do.

Faithful got use? The answer is no. I treated him the best I could. I loved him as much as I can. I treasured you much more than how much I treasured my previous boyfriends. But yet I was being treated like what? Am I really not a good girlfriend? Am I really not good enough for you? I kept thinking and thinking. I totally had no appetite to eat anything. How I wish you can treasure me and love me with all your heart. That is all I wished for. Why can't I have what I deserves?

Label: I'm lost

2009-08-12T21:16:00.003+08:00

Reached home not long ago. Log-ed into audi. AudiSea Admin ass.. Give false alarm. Maintenance finished at like 12.30? Crap~ Now talking to baby. He dabian-ing. Gross.. Tomorrow wedding le. Happy.!(:

Just now at Dhoby mood swing. Cause saw baby's phone and got jealous! RAWRS! So many gan baby and laopo de somemore the name in front got heart heart de.. Sad die me la..! T.T Then baby changed the contacts. Hehe. Love him much much~. Later 10pm got cpl arena. Yes yes!
Going back audi soon.

Label: Baby I love u.(:

2009-08-12T09:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Clubbers,

Kindly note that Asiasoft Passport will be undergoing maintenance on 12th August 2009 from 0300hrs (+8 GMT) to 2359hrs (+8 GMT).

All services of Asiasoft Passport will be unavailable during the stated time period.

In addition, the game’s Cash Shop and AuditionSEA Game Services will also be down for maintenance on 12th August 2009 from 0600hrs (+8 GMT) to 13th August 2009 1500hrs (+8 GMT).

Players will not be able to make any purchase during this time.

- AuditionSEA Administrator

Reported By: Chloe Lim~

Conclusion: Those who skipped school today for AudiSea. This is ur disappointment then nxt time please check notice board before skipping school. (: Singles! Today dun nid find cpl le~ Married Couples! Give a break for urself and have a date instead of staring at the comp to tag hearts. FAM Masters! A break for ur hands from clicking of buying channel. No tagging FP today~! (:

Heng sent heart with baby last night before logging out. Tomorrow after maintenance can wedding. (: Now super hungry~ Going breakfast with mummy then heading for school le~ Update when I come home tonight then. No audi really can do alot of things. Finally can watch my anime in peace. SUPER HUNGRY! Shall stop here then~! Ciaos!

Label: Officially attached on 1oAug'o9 o211hrs.

2009-08-06T01:34:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for almost 1 month le. Things went quite smoothly until the start of last week. Thing were so screwed until I couldn't cope with it. Just hoping that this matter will end soon! Really very shag over this matter. Haven been sleeping for more than 10hrs the past 3days. Break recored le la~

I just hope that things will go back to normal like how we were before. Really want to treasure u wholeheartedly..

Label: I love you~

2009-07-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

4th post for the month of July.. It's been a week since I last blog.. Actually don't want blog de. Cause really don't know what to blog.But end up decided to come in..

I guess I've fallen for him.. I don't know why. Just felt like using my heart and soul to love, protect and care for him. I did say I don't wish to love again. But I really don't know why this feeling came back. I see him got hurt. My heart ache so badly. I really wished that he could be happy. Though the person in his heart is someone else.. I really hoped that she can make him happy. I really felt so retharded. I really felt like being there for him. Though I know it's no use. Really hated myself so much. I hate this feeling. I hate it alot alot...

Label: Sad & Heartbroken

2009-07-08T17:18:00.001+08:00

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2009-07-07T21:01:00.002+08:00

What is wrong with me?! I really felt like giving up on myself. Feeling stressed. Starting to hate life as it is now. Shit. ARGH! I'm going crazy. I don't wana fall into depression. Hais. Can I just bang the wall? Oh my gosh~! Someone please save me.. ):

Label: Depressed.

2009-07-02T01:59:00.001+08:00

Finally had my blog updated to be complete. Pictures? Another day please. Super shag after finding a simple skin for my blog. Skins are really hard to find. Finally got settled down with this.

Disclaimer: Thanks to Delon for suggesting song for me to update in my blog. ❤

Seriously I totally have no idea what to do next. I'm feeling so tired out of all these rubbish. It's been a year ever since I've really got myself to love someone. I'm starting to lost touch of the feeling of love already. Maybe I should just keep things this way. I've no idea how am I supposed to love someone again. Though life feels so much emptier without a partner to bring me the touch of care and concern. I guess I can still live on. I've got to keep myself strong and standing. I know I have to.

School is about to re-open soon next week. All these nonsence thoughts will be gone soon. Glad to keep myself occupied. Will keep myself super occupied. Yeah~ I will. Gona get myself to earn the first part-time income for myself le. JIAYOUS WEIXUAN~!(:

Label: I need nobody.

2009-06-28T01:26:00.002+08:00

Things became stressful for me recently. Really felt like giving up. I just don't know what is wrong again. What should I do? I just want a simple life. Why is it so hard to achive? I'm simply sick and tired of it.

Won't be blogging any sooner till I feel better to do so..

Label: Stressed

2009-06-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

Just thought of this and I really wana post up and happens that this is my 100th post. HAPPY 100th POST! Heh.

Was browsing around. I kept thinking. What exactly are people thinking now? The mentality of relationships I meant. Being together and breaking up as easy as snapping ur fingers. What is the world going on now? I really can't stand people who treats relationships like toys. Play and throw. Grow up lah! Be matured and think better can? Gosh. Relationships is where by both party compromises each other and helping out each other whenever they needed each other isn't it? Isn't it that couples should be there for each other and hold on to one another no matter what? Isn't this the reason why both are together?

Just hoping people can treasure each other better ba. (:

Label: Just wanting to have a couple who can be there for me.

2009-06-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

HI EVERYONE! YES! YES IM BACK FROM KOREA FINALLY! DID ANYONE MISS ME? HAHAS!

Took alot of pictured.. Too much to be updated! Kinda lazy u know. Hahas. Yeah! Going overseas of cause is for training. And of cause SHOPPING! Yeah.. Didnt have much time to go walk around. Bought my products which cost SGD2k.. And some other things like tibits, necklace, all these bahh... Of cause I'll never leave out my COSMETICS! Hahas. Went to The Face Shop. I've spent like SGD470 just in that shop. HAHAS! Really gona stop spending for the next few months.

Left with another 2weeks of holidays. Will do my best to pick up as much skills as I can in this month and be a supervisor by this month. DO OR DIE! YES!!.. I love myself so much! Wahahaa..

WLC is on Wed. Gona go back and take weight. All those who went Korea for AE cfm die de laa. Body fat % cfm increase de. Everyone prepare to pay penalty horr! Hahas. Mummy is gona go down tmr and join WLC on Wed. I'm so happy! Yesss! Hahas.. Tomorrow go back office really gona weigh myself and prepare how much penalty I've got to pay le. Gosh!

Label: I LOVE SHOPPINGS! (:

2009-06-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

Currently at Airport T2 using the free internet before boarding the plane. A few minutes more to go before I need to board the plane.

I seriously hate it when I'm going overseas. Die die also will kena flu on that day de. Gosh! Having flu now.. Buey ta han siaa.. Hope later after resting on the plane would be fine. (:

OMG! I'm gona miss my friends! RAWRS!

Label: Sick.~

2009-06-16T01:02:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I don't know whether how much to love my mum. Sometimes, I really hates it whenever she starts nagging at me. Sometimes, I loves her alot. I know she pampers me alot. She've spent alot of money on me. ALOT! Like for this few months. The amount she've spent on me I can afford to buy a few LV bags le. March I've spent more than SGD600 on my birthday chalet @ Sentosa. May SGD200+ on health supplement. June I've spent SGD140 on lingerie, SGD3000 for going Korea, SGD1200 for Korea's expenditure, SGD 300+ on health supplement, SGD 150 on Eye Messager. SGD1300 on my lappy, SGD 349 on my camera. A total of SGD 7,239+++.. Gosh! I seriously spend alot man! Gona save abit for the next few months le.

Tomorrow night leaving Singapore for Korea for Event cum Holiday. It's gona be alot of fun for this coming week. (: Hope mummy can see a bigger picture on what I'm working on. Yeah! Gona bring my new camera there and take many many pictures to upload. Rare chance of me updating chunks of pictures in my blog. Heh~

Been single for quite some time le. At first wasn't feeling right when he went missing from my life. I knew I had to let go. I knew I can't put in any hope in him accepting me. It was too late. I'm late by 2 years. I truely regretted at times when I think back. But now, I'm feeling so much relaxed. I've finally sorted out my mind. Stress free from relationships now. (: But still had lots of stress on money.. I'm short of cash! RAWRS! Gona start learn how to save my money le. Or else I'll get a hell load of nagging from my mum.

Kay ba~ Gona slack for awhile more before going to bed. Have to pack my stuffs tomorrow early..

Label: I NEED MONEY!

2009-06-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

Okay. Had to do this test again thanks to my lovely bitch. Okay.. Shall faster finish up and blog le.. (:

All of the 14 people must do this quiz , unless he/she doesn't have a blog.Write the name of 14 people you can think off the top of your head. Then answer the question.(Not in order)

1.Pim
2.Katherine Lai
3.Xiulian
4.JianHui
5.Louise Meech
6.Elson
7.Vincent
8.Sherlyn Ho
9.Touran
10.Joan Wong
11.Eleen
12.Ginn
13.Sean Foo
14.LAST BUT NOT LEAST! WeiSze

1. How did you get to meet 7 (Vincent) ?
- In AuditionSea. 1 year ago?

2. What would you do if you & 13 never meet (Sean)?
- Then he wouldn't be my ex..

3. What would you do if 1(Pim) & 12 (Ginn) date ?
- LOL! Lesbians?

4. Have you ever seen 14(WeiSze) cry ?
- HMM! Did I? Only can remember her being drunk.

5. Would 4(JianHui) & 11 (Eleen)be a good couple?
- LOL! That's impossible!

6. Do you think 11(Eleen) is attactive?
- HMM! Attractive in which way?

7. What's 2's(Katherine) favourite colour ?
- PINK! I know I'm right.

8. When was the last time you talk to 9(Touran) ?
- Quite some time le. Misses~

9. What language does 8 (Sherlyn) speak ?
- English Chinese Hokkien Cantonese

10. Who is 13(Sean) going out with ?
- Currently Single.

11. What grade is 12(Ginn) in ?
- Working now.

12. Would you ever date with 10 (Joan)?
- LOL! Never! She's my Teddy.

13. Where does 5 (Louise) live ?
- Queenstown

14. What's the best thing about 3 (XiuLian)?
- Funny. Siao Char Bo.

15. What would you want to tell 10 (Joan) now ?
- I LOVE UU...

16. What's the best thing about 8 (Sherlyn)?
- HMM! Faithful!

17. Have you ever kissed 5(Louise) ?
- LOL~! NEVER!

18. What was the best memories you have with 7 (Vincent)?
- The times when we were together.

19. When's the last time you've seen 6 (Elson)?
- A few hours ago? LOL.

20. How is 14 (WeiSze) & 12 (Ginn) different ?
- Big difference!

21. Is 6 (Elson) pretty ?
- Neh.! He's handsome..

22. What was the first impression of 11 (Eleen)?
- Not sure lei!

23. How did you meet 5 (Louise)?
- Since Primary school.

24. Is 1 (Pim) your best friend ?
- She's my precious darling.

25. Do you hate 12 (Ginn)?
- FOR?? She's my jie.

26. Have you seen 4 (JianHui) on the last month ?
- May..Nope~ Last seen on April.

27. When was the last time you said to 3 (XiuLian)?
- Who created this quiz. His/Her English sucks. Last talked to her should be quite some time le.

28. Have you been to 5's (Louise) house ?
- Yeah! Quite a few times le.

29. When's the next time your gonna see 10(Joan) ?
- Not sure.

30. Are you close to 13 (Sean)?
- Last time when we were dating. Been a long time ever since we last met.

31. Have you been to a movie with 4(JianHui) before ?
- Yes. Only once.

32. Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8 (Sherlyn)?
- Nope.!

33. Would you give 2(Kat) a hug ?
- YEAH! We just hugged an hour ago. (:

34. When have you lied to 3(XiuLian) ?
- What can I even lie to her about?

35. Is 1(Pim) good with socializing ?
- Not bad. (:

2009-06-13T23:58:00.003+08:00

Finally gotten my lappy today. (: Will be able to be online already. Today mood very good de. Cause I didn't open my mouth to go to PC show and my mum actually did keep her promise to get me a lappy. Loves~ So met mummy after her work at around 5pm for lunch/dinner before going for PC show. After dinner, we went searching for my lappy.

Decided to get a HP Pavilion dv4 Series Entertainment Notebook PC at $1299. What shocked me is what when we were about to pay for the lappy we had to pay another 0.55% extra charge for using NETS. I was wondering what crap is that sia. Okay nevermind.. 0.55% out of $1299 is extra $7 charge so it should be fine. What makes me pissed is that before signing the receipt, I was kidding about signing before checking my goods and the lady replied that I could check my lappy after signing at the side. And I already wasn't happy with their service. What added into my temper is that after signing the damn receipt and I was about to check my stuffs the person came forward and say 'Actually we don't provide customers with assistance for checking the goods. All the goods sold are ensured that everything is in working condition and all the things are inside the box.' By simplifying it is that we cannot check our things. So what if everything are in good condition? So what if everything is inside? We are customers and we have the right to give it a check right? Damn.. They spoiled my mood for the rest of the day..

Was walking around looking at of the lappys at other booth. Saw this twins working at one of the booth. The guy super cute la.. Then end up we keep smiling at each other. Hahas. Continued walking and end up buying another camera at $349. Headed home after buying my camara.

Label: Pissed..

2009-05-31T18:15:00.002+08:00

Woots! Super happy. Might be having holidays during attachment. (: Happy! Didnt get my lappy this week cause PC show haven't start. Will be duing June so I'll be MIA-ing from here for a few weeks i guess. Cause gona return notebook to Kat today or tomorrow Yeah! Tomorrrow is 1st June le.. Time passed quite fast.

Label: Contented.

Had been bitcher and bitcher this 2 days.. I just can't stand her. Omg. ARGHSS! What the hack siaa. She think she very pretty luh. Pui. Seriously she can just go and die. Gross. If I'm a guy I won't even choose her. Yucks.

Label: I know I'm bitchy.

2009-05-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

Been thinking much more than usual this few days. I really don't know what is wrong with me this few days. I still can't settle down on what I want. Or is it that I can't believe the fact that I still love u? Feeling depressed. Been wondering why images of u kept flashing in my mind. Been wondering why I just can't get rid of u out of my mind? Or is it that I loved u too deeply? I don't wish to know the answer. I don't wish to sort it out. Hoping that I could just forget about u which I know that it will never be possible. The memories of u is just too vivid. The love for u is too strong. Really wished that there is such tea which will let me forget everything do exist. Gosh~ What am I thinking exactly. I just wish that u're right beside me so that I can hug u tightly and never let u go.. I wish.. I wish...

Label: Depressed..

Attachment is sorta fun. Was in Preparation Lab with Bitch. We were enjoying ourselves playing with the mop and water while cleaning the floor. The autoclaving agar for decontamination time was really funny. The smell is super stinky especially after opening the lid. U can practically see everyone's reaction. But smart me.. I took the respirator so that I still could breathe some fresh air u know. Hahas. Love the time in the lab with those peeps. Love them all. Making my attachment so so so much fun. (:

Label: Another 3months 3weeks and 1 day to go.

2009-05-26T21:02:00.002+08:00

When will there be someone who can stand by me?

When will there be someone to care for me?

When will there be someone who can lend me a shoulder?

When will there be someone to give me unconditional love?

When will the someone be there for me?

Feeling tired.. On the verge of dying soon.. Attachment for 4months is really a tortue. How exactly am I going to survive.. Not in the mood to blog at all. Blog seems so dead. Shall blog when I feel like it bahss..

Label: I hate the way it is now

2009-05-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

Just realised that my last post was on 19May'o9, Tuesday. Time passed so fast canss!..

20May'o9 Wednesday

Ended school around 4 plus. Cause had to stay back to get our attachment results. Got In-House attachment as expected. Bored! Everyday 8.30 to 5.30 and it lasts for 4months. Bloody hell! I'm aint sure how am I going to survive in school. Requested my mum for increasing my pocket money. She agreed. What a nice mum I have. (: Gona work really hard next time to let my mum to travel round the world to fulfill her dream. I know I'm a good daughter. Thanks.. Hahas. After ITE, gona go for my dreams le. Hope time passes fast! (: Went to mum's office after school. Cause have to do our projects for QC&A. Dateline is on Thurs. Couldn't finish by 8.30. Thinking we'll die for our project if we don't hand in.. Went for some shopping in NTUC to get our stuffs to fill the fridge and cupboard. Bought mum a Fish Burger cause she's hungry. Came home for shakes. Nothing else le bahs.. Boring life..

Label: I hated this particular group member!

21May'o9 Thursday

Went 30minutes late for our QC&A class test. Paper lasts for 1.5hrs. Had myself rotting during the test. Cause didn't study for the test at all. Was too busy with the project. So crapped through the whole paper.. After test, requested teacher to let us hand in abit later due to some IRRESPONSIBLE member me and sze had to rush through everything by ourself. Bloody hell.. So rushed to mum's office to finish the rest and finalize the thing before sending it for binding. Rushed to Tanah Merah to meet Sze before going school together. Had our work handed in. Heng siaa.. Headed home to sleep after that. Slept from 7pm till next day. Didn't study for MBT theory test at all..

Label: Really tired this few days.

22May'o9 Friday

Woke up and prepared to go school. Was waiting for bitch to message me. Think she overslept so went to school first. She message me saying she woke up at 9.30.. Bitch really pig siaa.. Asked her to rush down for the test she dunwan cause never study.. Heng Ms Fong allow her to do it on Monday.. Went homee to prepare before going to do my stuffs.. Headed down for Team Training after finishing my thing. Heng I never late.. Team Training was great yesterday. Learnt alot on human body. Cool siaaa. Headed home at 11.30pm..

Label: Bitch please study for ur test and find Mrs Wong on Monday!!

23May'o9 Saturday, Today

Meet mummy for lunch at Amoy Market there. Headed to SDS event after lunch. Learnt alot on marketing plan, products and many more.. Headed to NTUC with Jeff and forgotten his name to get our BBQ food and drinks for tomorrow's chalet. Came home after that. Mum cooked porriage. Bla bla blaa.. Too tired to eleborate. Tomorrow still gona pack house before going off to chalet. Go le..~

Label: I love my bed.!

2009-05-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

Finally my 90th post! Had many many many thoughts today. Firstly, I shall name the more important stuffs.

To Bitch:

BITCH! Seriously speaking. I don't wish to see u being this way anymore u know! As a friend of yours I really hope to see u putting effort in urself. Its only a few months to go and u can graduate le! After that u can do whatever u want or wish to do. U should know when to have fun and when to be serious. I don't want to leave u back there making urself like u don't wana help urself. U have a bf that cares for u alot and pamper u (though I don't agree the both of u being together). Right? Help urself can? I truely and sincerely want to help u ehh! Please pull urself up. Promise me can? The both of us will always be there when u need a pull I promise u. Don't disappoint me. Love u.

Secondly, I can't wait for this week to end. A few more days to go then I can finally have a breathe. What else? Of cause it's the end of class tests and projects la. (: Then it'll be the start of my attachment. Where else will my attachment be? In school of cause. With my lousy attendance and GPA results. Teacher wouldn't want to risk putting me to work in companies (Duhss?).

Thirdly, waiting for my blings to come so that I can stick on my phone. Yayness! Kat also getting blings. So we'll get to stick our blings together. (:

Fourth, can't wait for some free time to go out drinking before attachment and celebrate bitch's birthday.

Fifth, getting a lappy next week! HURRAY! Love mummy. Woots. Shall get my CPU done up soon I hope.

Lastly, settle down in my life! Don't wana have anymore retharded thoughts le. Though there are much more things I wana do.. I shall keep it till when I'm free bahss..

Today, went school alone. bitch didn't reply my message. Sadded uhh!. Went to meet Clement after MBT theory to help him buy cigg. Then headed back to school 30minutes late. Lesson ended early so headed to mum's office to do my project. Stressed. Had some quarrel with the stupid door-man. His attitude super fucked up. Really want to quarrel with him but mummy say no use quarreling with such people so we left. Super idiotic. Spoil my day.

Shall not blog le. Talking to Alan now.~ Will study abit later before I sleep. Nighty~

Label: Lack of love..

2009-05-18T01:48:00.005+08:00

Kat show me this 3bags from Victoria's Secret that night. So nice uhh! I want! It's only S$160 for all 3.. RAWRS! Gona save money and buy le.

Met Kat at 4.30pm to register her singing competition. She reached around 5pm. Registered and found out that she's the first competitor. Then we go ask the person if she can change to no2 or no3. But the person replied her say cannot. Then she should feel honoured that she's the first competitor. Super funny sia. Then both of us went for a walk in Heeren. Then down to Basement1 to eat Japanese food. It costed us around 10bucks each. SO EXPENSIVEE!! Then rushed up and wait for her turn to start. Behind the stage got some bazzar. Saw this stall selling Victoria's Secret bag. I almost went crazy cause the bag like super nice. Kat went up on stage. She was super nervous luhs! She rushed through the song. Yupp.. Then came down and she decided to buy this bag for S$65. I deposited $30 to buy this charm and 2 other bags.

Walked to Far East to buy my blings to stick my phone. Spent about 30minutes there. End up ordered Pink blings. Costed me S$60 luh! Went down Level1 to buy water. Passed by O2 Skin then ended buying nail polish and a moisturizer for mummy. Headed home with Kat after that. Came home and removed my nail polish which I've only do for 2days? Waste my money. Then helped mummy to put on nail polish. See I so guai. (: Hahas. Helped myself to paint my toe nail and put blings on my phone and earpiece.

Abit regreted putting deposit for the 2 bag. Super not worth. Kat told me can buy at cheaper price. Ass...

Label: I miss him! ):

2009-05-16T23:05:00.003+08:00

13 May'o9 [Wednesday]

School lasted for only 1hour cause had MBT practical test. Test went quite smoothly. Headed to Bedok for lunch with Bitch and Sheilia. Left for Marina Square with Bitch to do our log book which have to be handed in on 15 May'o9 (Friday). Went shopping for awhile. Bought a new pouch for my phone, a leggings and a headband. Sat down at Macs to do our log book. Decided to use my headband so went to the toilet to struggle for 1hr with my headband. Ended up I put for 5-10mins I removed. Slacked awhile then decided to buy fries to eat before leaving. Headed home after eating.

Label: Broke.

14 May'o9 [Thursday]

Go to school late as usual. Attended QC&A practical for only 1.5hr. Wanted to go out with Bitch to do our log book as we didnt even do a single entry on Wed. But she said she wanted to go home sleep. So headed home. Was trying to keep myself awake to do my log book but ended up sleeping. Slept till 7pm before going to Louise's house to use her lappy cause need Microsoft Word to type the stupid report for QC&A to be pasted into the log book. Reached there around 8plus. Stayed till 12 then headed home. Do up my log book till 4plus with Bitch on msn. Then wanted to meet Bitch for breakfast before going school to attend lesson. But ended up sleeping.

Label: Stressed

15May'o9 [Friday]

Met Bitch at 11.30am cause both of us woke up late. Headed to school in home clothes. Reached school around 12plus 1pm. Bitch and I was trying to touch up the last bit of the log book before handing it up to teacher at 2pm. Went to Cafe 1 for lunch after handing it to teacher. Slacked awhile then I headed off to Far East to meet Kat to do manicure. Bitch went home. Found this shop in Far East that sell blings at a very cheap price. Going there to buy within this 2 weeks to do up my nails! (: Went for Team Training @ Whampoa again. Stayed there till 11.45 and headed home. Realising that Whampoa is super near my house. Took only 30mins to reach home. Slept early that night.

Label: Tiring.

16May'o9 [Today, Saturday]

Woke up at 12.45pm. Prepared and headed off to mummy's office to do my project. Ended up don't know how to do. So slacked there and use the internet. Went to my nai ma house cause her grand-daughter today 1month birthday. Mummy went to buy gold. Spent like 316bucks.! Now gold super expensive. 1g for $48.50. Oh my tian.~ Had my favorite curry there. Today very sinful. Eat until very fattening.! Left there around 9plus. Took cab home cause mummy gastric pain. Gona sleep soon I guess. Tomorrow have to pack my room. It became messy again. I got pack or never pack like no difference de. A few days messy le. Idiotic. Meeting Kat at 4pm @ Heeren tomorrow. Shall psycho my mum to give me money to buy my nail polish and blings. (:

Arghs! I'm hungry again. Like that how to slim down sia! RAWRS! Shall get some milk shake later. Lalalalala~

Label: I wana get a bf! ):

2009-05-16T00:49:00.002+08:00

Just reached home not long ago from Team Trainning. Super tired.. I shall blog tomorrow. Cannot make it le. Gona fall asleep soon.. Nighty nights.!

Label: Tire out from school work.

CLUBBING @ ST JAMES

2009-05-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

7TH JUNE 09
VAUNT IV @ ST.JAMES
8pm till lateMIXAGE
{ 16 & Above }

Announcing the Arrival of the Kings!
In conjunction with The German Embassy and the Goethe Institute
Celebrating The Kings Of Freedom Project in Singapore The Youth Empire and Modellink together presents...

VAUNT IV:
The Arrival of The Kings Will Burn up the Runway track and Paint our fine city Red Black and Gold. For one night and one night alone, St James Power station will open her iron gates of St James Powerhouse, The Gallery and Bar None to the attendees of VAUNT IV: The Arrival of The Kings! And for that night, we welcome you to party hard industrial style alongside with us.

VAUNT IV also celebrates the 4th Anniversary of The Youth Empire. So come witness one of the most highly celebrated and respected Fashion Runway Parades in Singapore this 7th June 2009! Bear Witness to the works of 8 Young Talented Fashion Designers. As they Dress 16 of Singapore's hottest and most delightfully delectable models! Catch 16 of them marching down the Runway in their New York Street style glamour Combined with Andy Warhol Pop Art and Edie Sedgwick, High Fashion inspired wear! So once again...

VAUNT IV: The Arrival of The Kings7th June@ St. James Powerhouse, The Gallery, and Bar NoneWatch Fashion History in the making!

More details coming your way... Another highly anticipated event organized by The Youth Empire and Modellink!

For further updates and details,
Contact:Jayjay @ 93891335 OR
Carefree92@Hotmail.com !

2009-05-12T23:23:00.002+08:00

Thinking back that yesterday Bitch told me that Andy and Xian patched. So went to view their blogs just now. Feeling happy for Andy cause he finally settled down again. And some other thoughts. [will be posted in wordpress] Okay~! I really feel like going crazy now. The urge of wanting to laugh dam loud. I guess I'm being bitchy and saddist. I'm sorry but this is me.. Bitch will understand. ROFL~

Recently having bad headaches when I wake up. Don't know whats wrong also. Maybe is not enough sleep I guess. So woke up at around 11? Bitch woke me up. She also late can! Met her on the train and train-ed to school together. Reached school at like 1pm? So decided not to go for the 2nd lesson. Fong called at 2pm ask bitch go up take her test. So I went up to lecture room wait for teacher to come. Bitch message me say she knows who kena In-House. Aiyaa. Don't say I also know I kena le. Bitch came for lecture after her test. She say both of us kena In-House. Like that also good. Can go school together. Can bitch together. Hahas.~ But never see the cb's name. Fucker siaaaa. If she never kena I cfm complain. PUI! Lesson ended train-ed home with bitch.

On the train super funny. I was getting ready to go down at Outram Park (next stop Tiong Bahru). Then got this aunty think I want go down. She turned & walk 1 step (thinking I'll go off the train). Bitch & I see le started laughing. She super sua gu sia.. I haven't even stand up she wana sit down already. Typical Singaporean. Tsk tsk~ I told bitch that I don't mind taking train all the way to Joo Koon (last stop of the MRT). We started laughing again. The aunty keep turning her head and look at me thinking when will I stand up to let her have the seat. Super joker sia. So I sit and sit. Who knows got another woman stood up and get down at Tiong Bahru also. Sad la! No show see. I stood up and left the train. Came home and nap till 10pm. Super tired. Now I'm still tired. Guess I gona turn into a pig soon. ):

Label: I wana be loved and pampered..

2009-05-11T23:25:00.007+08:00

Arghss! My blog seems so dead canss! Like no people come read de. But I don't really care. Low profile better. (:

Headed to Tiong for dinner with Katherine after swimming. Saw shoe sales. See see look look end up buying a new heels. So happy! (:

Measured and its 4.5 inch. RAWR!

Went to Kopitiam for dinner. I had Tom Yam Ban Mian. Then Kat bought Spaghetti. Mum came over after work. She ate Yong Tao Fu. Headed home after dinner. Finally let mum know that I'm consuming Herbalife's product. Thought she'll be angry with me. Out of my expectation she ended up saying that she'll take one and try out. Cool. Ended up she became my first customer. (:

Label: Multiple feelings. Happy. Sad. Stressed. Awaiting..

2009-05-11T16:08:00.002+08:00

Last night ended up decorating my restaurant until never write the letter for mum. Went to bed around 2plus 3? I don't remember. Woke up late as usual today so reached school at 12.30. Met Sheilia at Cafe2 and joined them to play heart attack. Today's practical ended very early. The practical lasted for 1.5hr only. Took mrt home with Weisze. Gona go for swimming with Katherine soon. I'm bored. I need motivation! I need someone to lean on. ):

Nothing much to blog today. I guess.

Label: Feeling moody. Is there someone i can confide in? Hais.~

2009-05-11T03:04:00.003+08:00

Oh great. I feel like banging the wall now. I was hopping around blogshops and I almost killed myself. I regretted not saving money! Gosh. I see until super tempted. I want money! RAWR! I die die will go work part time and earn myself some money to go shopping.

AND! IM STILL AIMING FOR MY GUCCI BAG!!

Label: Feeling Broke.

2009-05-10T21:45:00.005+08:00

Went for HOM today. It was quite motivating. Really felt like working hard on selling the products to help people to improve their health and lose weight like how i did. Today saw this Hong Kong girl super pretty after slim down. I see already I jealous eh!

Anyone who wants to slim down or improve ur health like having diabeties problems or even heart problems. You may email me your number and name at leadmylife_@hotmail.com or simply leave ur name and number at my tag board. I'll get back to u asap. (:

Today is Mother's Day. Rushed back asap to cook dinner for mummy. Wanted to buy a small small cake at BreadTalk for mummy (too much very fattening ar!) but reached there all the cakes are GONE! I was like wth.. So decided to head home with the ingredients I bought to cook (using mummy's money =x). Gona write a card for mummy soon. Will collaspe on my bed any sooner. I'm very tired. Nights everyone~! Tata...~

Label: Tired! I need battery for recharge. I want to have a love life.! I'm just kidding.

Much Thanks to:

Bendan Jo for helping me to log into my

Restaurant City @ Facebook to

feed my employees. (:

2009-05-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

Finally had the time to pack my room today. Rather neat now but still need to find time to bring my books to the Salvation Army for donation.

Was supposed to go swimming today but Katherine say her muscle cramp so end up never go. So went to meet Yong Xiang watch movie. I wanted to watch 17again but tickets sold out. It's like the show so long le still got so many people watch. Hais. So end up watching Star Trek. The show not bad la. Its about spaceships and black hole in the universe. Headed home after watching movie. Meeting Katherine soon. She's buying dinner for me. Love her loads. (:

Label: Not contented.
Status: Finding Boyfriend.

2009-05-09T00:25:00.011+08:00

Heh. Just reached home from Irene's place. Went to have Team Training. So happy that I've lost 3.7kg in 3weeks. Kekes. Gona chiong 1.3kg for this coming week.(: Team training ended at 9.30pm but stayed there for awhile. Left there around 10.50 bahss. Took bus to Dhoby and meet Tobias awhile.

Woke up late again today. Skipped morning's lesson. This morning's wind so big then when the door closed it banged my finger. Now my finger swell le. Super pain uh! Tomorrow sure blue black de.

Today's test I almost vomited. I eventually forgot how to do some of the questions. Super retharded. I almost died in the lecture hall rotting thinking how to answer those questions. But lucky I know how to do most of the questions. Hope I can pass with at least 75%. Headed off to Raffles to do my stuffs and came home for a change before going to Irene's house.

Last night after studying 2chapters I got bored so started to use msn and crap around. Went crazy and started to use webcam to take some photos. (:

Label: 45kg is my aim! (:

2009-05-07T16:41:00.002+08:00

Today's blog will be very short cause I need to rush through my theory lectures. Tomorrow got test. Last minute as usual. Heh.~

Skipped 1st lesson in the morning cause couldn't wake up. Sze didn't go school. She said she very reluctant to go school. So have to face her alone again. Reached school around 11.10am. Today QC&A practical was practicing stock taking. After stock taking Mr Olivia go through theory questions with us. Had alot of laughter during briefing. Mr Olivia super funny bodoh.~ Lesson ended early today as usual. Around 12.50. Took bus 2 till Bedok to change bus 14 home. Study abit and decided to nap awhile. Overslept and passed my stop. No choice but to head back. Noth much to blog le. Tata~

Label: Mugging for theory test.

2009-05-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

Had practical test today. It was quite easy. Hope can pass bahss. (:

Went Mustafa walk walk with Sze after eating in school. Homed after that. Nothing much to blog today.

Label: Confused.

Private blog updated.

2009-05-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

People I'll be using another blog from tonight onwards. But this blog will still be active sometimes when I feel like it. (:

P.S Message me if u want my blog. ONLY FOR FRIENDS!

2009-05-04T20:07:00.002+08:00

Now at Louise's house blogging. Today felt like jogging don't know for what reason so came over to her house. Don't know what to blog cause feeling rather weird now.

Reached school late for an hour today. Lesson ended early as usual. Called up Tobias to ask about my iPhone. He taught me how to restart my bloody phone. Gosh.. Thanks alot man! Loves~ I almost rush down to Bugis during my break time to repair my phone. Went to Cafe1 to find Sheilia. Went back to class at 1pm. Really feel like creating a private blog now. Shall do it later when I reach home. Got alot alot alot of things I want to write.. Alot alot alot of thing that I can't post here. Might be letting this blog rot I guess? I'm still not sure what I'm thinking exactly.

Label: Confused.

NG WEI SZE! U BETTER GO SCHOOL UHSS! DON'T WANA SEE U STAY BACK ANOTHER YEAR! WILL U GRADUATE WITH ME!?

2009-05-04T00:48:00.002+08:00

RAWRS! Having lots of different feelings now.

First, buddy aint clear of his feelings.. Addition of having confinement for 21days (left 9days though) made him more stress cause he misses his family alot. Thus, he've been treating me cold this few days.. Hope he'll cheer up!(:

Label: Sad

Secondly.. MY PHONE IS STILL NOT OKAY YET! FUCK FUCK FUCK! PISSING ME OFF! Fucking bitch spoil my phone. I gona let u pay if repair fees are required. Tmd.

Label: Pissed.

Thirdly, FACEBOOK! I freaking cannot enter Restaurant City.. MY WORKERS ARE STARVING! I'VE YET TO COLLECT MY INGREDIENTS TOO!

Label: Irritated

Fourth, I cannot enter Anime Season to watch my freaking anime!

Label: Bored.

Fifth, I think about having to attend school tomorrow I feel like wacking people. It's not about having to attend lectures and laboratory practices. It's to face people I hate. Hypocrite & a.. BIG.. FAT.. LIAR..! Pui. I look down on u.. Yeah. U might be nice at times being there for friends. But.. FUCK LA! Forget it. I dont wish to eleborate more. The more I think the more I feel like wacking people. I shall stop here.

Label: Thinking that I've to meet someone I don't like now.. The feeling SUCKS!

Finally Anime Season can enter. Gona watch another episode and here comes my candy dreams!(:

2009-05-03T19:25:00.004+08:00

Left house at 12noon today to deliver drinks for Kat and the others and also pass Kat money to buy my shoe. Headed to Paya Lebar to help Sher take photos for free cause owed her 10bucks.. Rawrs! Went to buy some tibits before going home.

Label: Feeling bored..

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! FUCKING PISSED! ARGHSSS! ALL THANKS TO MY FRIEND'S MUM! ANYHOW TOUCH MY PHONE NOW MY PHONE HANG! CNT EVEN OFF, UNLOCK & MESSAGE! ARGH! IT CNT EVEN BE CHARGED! DAM IT LAHSSS!!!!

Here goes the fucking story. Went to friend's house to study after buying dinner for mum. Settled down and took out my books. Before I even started studying my friend told her mum I bought a new phone. Then she wanted to show off she knows how to use my phone. Thus, she started sliding the pages (those who used iPhone before will know what i mean). Then her mum saw anyhow touch touch touch so many programme and entered a game. I waited for the game to load before exiting the programme. Exited the game and put on standby (thinking that nothing will happen). Then wanted to change song. So wanted to unlock my phone. HO SEH LAH! PHONE CNT EVEN BE UNLOCKED! PB SIA! never mind... I tried to off the phone. CANNOT! nevermind.. I wait (thinking that it'll be fine after awhile).. 15MINUTES PASSED AND THE PHONE STILL CANNOT BE UNLOCKED! WIN LE LAH! By that time I already had no mood to study so come home try see if can charge anot. Reached home. Plugged the charger in. NOW THE PHONE CANNOT EVEN BE CHARGED.! FUCKING PISSED NOW! FUCK SIA! CCB SIA! ARGHS!

Label: FUCKING PISSED! Don't try and irritate me before I get my phone done. Now buddy isn't there for me when I needed someone.. I hate him!!

2009-05-02T22:14:00.004+08:00

Slept till 10plus today. Thought gona be late for photoshooting. But ended up model not feeling well so today's photoshooting was cancelled to tomorrow. Things kept being postponed to a later date. Felt rather fucked up plus many things happened recently so kept having mood swing. Wana declare that it's not of my period it's because I'm starting to not being able to tolerate people I don't like. Guess it's because I've became more bitchy nowadays bahss.?

Since photoshooting cancelled I headed back to school to take my notes to study for the upcoming test. Gona chiong for GPA4 for this semester le! Kat called me when I was on my way to school asking me to buy drinks for her and her friends working at the warehouse. Decided to be a kind soul and help them to get them drinks. Headed home to put down my books after retriving them from the locker before getting bubble tea for them. Stayed at the warehouse till 5.15pm and headed home. Reserved a pair of puma shoe. Gona buy tomorrow. (:

Went to meet Bavani to study. Ended up crapping in the park instead of studying. Met Kat at Tiong around 8 to collect and bitched a'lil. Saw my ex with my secondary school junior. She so bloody ugly lahss. Gosh. At first I saw her first then my thinking was like who her bf sia. Stead with someone so buang. Then when he turned around I was shocked.. It was Dino.. Didn't bother much after that. Went loitering around Tiong..

I've thought alot today. Decided to give up lehss. From now I just wana stay single and concentrate on my studies le.. GAMBATEHH! Not gona get influenced by other things anymore. (: lalalala~

Label: Settling down my mind to concentrate on my studies.

2009-05-01T18:35:00.004+08:00

Created a new tagboard. (: People please tag in my new tag board instead of the old one. Thanks.!

Skipped school yesterday for work. Feeling super pathetic. Work for 10hrs and get 50bucks only. It actually don't matter much to me. What matters is that I had to stand all the way. So I ended up standing for 10hrs. Poor me.. Ended work at 7.30 and headed down to Bugis to meet korkor for awhile then went home.

Alot of things had been disturbing me recently. Rather sad. I'm not sure what to do anymore. Just wanting to be good friends I guess? At least we can talk to each other forever.. He've been sick for the past few days. Hope he'll get well soon. (:

Label: Troubled.

Today he woke up earlier than me. I woke up at 9plus. Told mummy I wanted to buy a bag for school. Asked her to sponser me. Additional to meet my cousin. Then had a little quarrel with mummy over going out to meet cousin for picnic. Wasn't in good mood so I didn't talk to her. Then she out of no where said that I could go and get my bag. My mood became better..(: So went to prepare and left. Wanted to go meet cousin but it was too late so I didn't go in the end. Reached there and saw a Nike bag. Its a 2-way carry bag. Can sling and carry sideways. Kat bought me that bag. Thanks Kat! (u know what I mean.(: ) Super happy. Went to Redhill market to get dinner and headed home.

Label: Don't wana love neither do I want to be in a relationship for the moment.

2009-04-29T14:28:00.004+08:00

This gona be my 70th post after so long. Realising that I've posted so little during all these while. Hmss! What happened today. Woke up and received a message from Angie saying that MBT practical lesson for Wednesday have been changed to 8.30am. So crap la. Timetable is shit though we can release early on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.

Reached school at 9am today. Started doing practical. Its a repeat of the last practical - making agar for DNA stuffs. After all these while I still don't know what am I doing for MBT. I only know that its about viruses, bacteria and some DNA stuffs. I know nothing else. Exams for MBT theory and practical are coming up next week. I've yet to study a single thing. Gona buck up and study soon.

School without Sze is real bored! No one to bitch with me. Sad life. Hope she'll come back soon. Today is house keeping day for my group. Stayed back to wipe tables. Oh yeah ~~ Fong kena sore throat. Hope she no voice. Irritating sia. She super kp luhss. Hate it so dam much. End lesson at 12 and was supposed to head down to Paya Lebar for phototaking. But end up something cropped up so decided to come home and feed my workers. See them hungry I sad. Rofl. Took bus 2 from school to Bugis to change 32. Just reached home.. Today stomach very pain uhs! Stupid cramp. Hope it ends soon. (:

Tomorrow is Thursday. The day after is Friday. The day after Friday is Saturday. The day after Saturday is Sunday. Ok ~ I'm being rethard. Time passes so fast. Its almost 3weeks after school re-open. Another few more weeks will be IA. Really hope dun kena In-House. Don't wana stay in school and see Fong for the next 5months.! Can't wait for 22May to come. Wana go out ton for the last day before IA starts.

Ok ~ It's time to nap nap! (:

Label : Tired. Pain and confused.

2009-04-29T01:02:00.007+08:00

Too many stuffs happened recently. My mood swing has finally ended (hopefully) and I'm starting to have cramps. Hope that my cramps won't affect my mood. Had been searching around for model for Sher's blog. Found 1 from Sheilia. Thanks man! Or else I'll go crazy when she keep asking me to help her find 1 for her. Gona go down to city plaza to help her with her photoshoot and of cus with my camara. Sher! U should be glad to have such a nice friend like me u know..(: YAY-NESS! I can get my crackers at city plaza tmr (or rather later)!

Today (or should it be yest?) is like WTFXZX canss. Sze didn't come school (shall not eleborate why). Sheilia kena diarrhoea and came for the second lesson which is like MBT theory. SO! I EFFING HAD TO DO QC&A PRACTICAL ALONE!!!!!! But thanks to the kind souls in our class like Qinyi and Stefe. They helped me to finish up my prac. Due to another reason cause everyone have to finish up their practical in order to release class. Don't know if I should be happy/sad.. Sheilia the bitch came school before I headed to Paya Lebar. So decided to stay in school for lunch. MBT theory lesson ended early and QC&A theory lesson was shifted to a later time at 3.30. Had 1.5hr of break time. So decided to go TM1 for a walk with Sheilia. Bought a new handphone strap. The strap got like 7 stars hanging on.. 7 is like my favorite number with stars are my favorite shape (i call it). Bought another bracelet for fun. Now im officially broke for the week. Gona take advance pocket money from the weekend to spend. Headed to interchange and realised that im super late. Time: 3.20pm.. Waited for the bus to come.. Time: 3.39pm.. Skipped QC&A theory lesson as I was late for 30mins for the lesson so decided to go home as it was the last lesson already. Starting to get more bitchy then usual. Sheilia got influenced by me. Disiao-ed this guy on the bus when we were on 31 to Bedok inter to take bus home. Was with Cheryl too. Super funny can! Met this super nerd guy on the bus. Sheilia sabo say Cheryl want his number. Cheryl being another bitch say that he too good for her. WTFXZX luhss.. We started laughing and cont'd disiao-ing him. Reached Bedok. He also went down the bus. He was like complaining to his friends lahss. We were like ROFL-ing. Seperated at interchange as I need to pee... Bus14 came fast. Didn't need to wait long. Hopped on and fell asleep on the bus. Was really tired for the day.

Label: Shag

Reached home at 5.45pm. Wanted to sleep after feeding my humans in Restarant City. But due to don't know what reason I couldn't even catch a nap before meeting my mum at Tiong. She wanted me to go to the bank to queue for her. Idiot.. Went to the bank and queue like an idiot for her. Had Ajisan for dinner. Don't know to be happy/sad. Ajisan's food standard getting lousier. Headed home after mum paid her bills at AXS machine.

Was messaging him halfway. Cried for no reason. Called him at around 10.45? He heard me sniffing. He asked me not to cry but I didn't know how to stop. Soon he hanged up cause he wants to have a shower before sleeping. He messaged me 'Don't think too much k? Don't cry le. I hear u crying my heart feel pain u know? Promise me not to cry le k? I want to see u smile not to cry k?' I kept thinking what does he treat me as. He said he treated me as his good friend so I in return treated him as my buddy. But when he told me this I cont'd crying. I really don't know what to do anymore. Maybe it's because of my mood swing i guess.

Label : Sad

YES! My Restaurant finally lvl15. Gona die lvling.. Nxt lvl's experience is like 38000! Its like WTFZXZ! 7000k more to go. Full of crap. Okay! I need my beauty sleep. Gona lay dead in a couple of minutes.. My eye bag and my eye ring gona kill me..!

Label: HUNGRY!

PERSONAL MESSAGES TO MY LOVED ONES:

Sze: I just want you to know that I'll always be there for u when u need anyone to trust to lean on. I can help u tink of thousands of ideas to help u. But if u don't wish to help urself I cannot to anything u know? I don't wish to see u rebelling and get nothing good in return. Rebel doesn't help at all in this situation. U should know that ur mum loves u. No point rebelling when u knows that she's stubbon right? I hope to see u be success in the future and not regret in future. I can be ur best buddy ur best listener or even ur best consultant. But u urself also have to pull urself up. Get what I mean? Hope to see u back in school soon. LOVES~

Katherine: Thanks for the notebook. Though it lags SO SO SOO much. But at least it could let me go to Restaurant City to play (I admit I'm still childish). And being able to update my dead blog. Girl loves~ I swear I gona get u something helpful for ur birthday. (: LOVES~

NOTE: WHICH KIND SOUL CAN TEACH ME HOW TO REMOVE MY BLOG'S BACKGROUND SONGG!

REMOVED IMEEM DUE TO NOISE POLLUTION IN MY BLOG

2009-04-26T16:17:00.002+08:00

Being loved is blessed. Loving people who don't love you is torturing.

Not knowing if I really do love him. Wanting to give up on relationships and stop learning to love others. Don't wish to get hurt again. Just wana lead a simple life and thats enough. I don't expect to live luxuriously. I only want someone to love me pamper me and care for me. That's all i wished for. Why is it so hard to get true love? Or am I not fated to be loved and receive true love? Why is it so hard to get someone to accompany me to walk finish the rest of my life and have a long lasting relationship? I'm just tired of everything. Hoping that I can give up everything and stop bothering bout every single things around me.

2009-04-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

Tears flowing down my cheeks. I don't know if I've made the right choice. I just hope I did. Though it hurts so much when I've chose to say all those to him. I had no choice. It feels as if I'm using my heart to bang into the wall rapidly. I know my description sounds retharded.. But that is how i felt at that moment. Trying to remove him from my mind. Trying to keep my promises. Trying to not disappoint those I've promised... I'll prove myself that I can do it.. And I will..

Another 5weeks to attachment. Really hope that I am able to be attach out of school. Don't wana be an idiot to stay in school. Wish me luck on scoring for MBT and QCA this following 5weeks. (:

2009-04-19T03:46:00.001+08:00

Rules and regulation of the tag ;All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog.Write the names of 16 friends you can think of in your head.And then answer the questions,Say you're guessing if you don't know,But at least guess on all of them.After doing this, tag your 21 unlucky friends to do the same.

1.Vincent (Lann)
2.Afiq
3.Louise
4.WeiSze
5.Angie
6.Neko
7.Touran
8.Vincent (Ahhboy)
9.Felicia
10.SiewLian (I gona throw this back to u cause u made me crack my head to think of 21 friends now)
11.Sherlyn
12.LiChuang
13.Samuel
14.Andrew
15.Pim
16.Ben
17.Sammel
18.Aloysius
19.LiYee (NaiNai)
20.LiYee (LiLi)
21.Manfred

1. How did you meet 7?
Through Audition 3 years ago. First seen in bunk.

2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
I'll short of another darling. ):

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
That will never happen?

4. Have you seen 17 cried?
Nope

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
4 is attached to someone else. I doubt they'll know each other someday.

6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
Why not? With her short skirt and her mini shorts.Rofl

7. What is 2's favourite colour?
I guess Black? Not sure

8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
A long time ago. Quarrelled cause of someone i hated

9. What language does 8 speaks?
English and Chinese? Duhss

10. Who is 13 going out with?
Some guys?

11. Would you ever date 17 ?
Never???

12. Where does 18 live?
I duno?

13. What is the best thing about 4?
She's there for her friends.

14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?
Thanks to u that im doing this now?

15. What is the best thing about 20?
Nice?

16. Have you ever kiss 2?
That will never happen!

17. What is the best memory you have of 5?
Friendly!

18. When's the next time you're going to see 4?
This coming Monday in school?

19. How is 7 different from 6?
Touran is my papa Neko is my darling. Both are my loved ones!

20. Is 2 pretty?
Never. HE'S A GUY!

21. What was your 1st impression of 15?
TALL AND PRETTY!

22. How did you meet 3?
Since Primary School..

23. Is 15 your best friend?
Nope. But she's my darling!

24. Do you hate 12?
For no reason? No way..

25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?
Never even meet before

26. When was the last time you saw 16?
This coming Wed will be the first day

27. Have you been to 5's house?
nope!

28. When's the next time you'll see 10?
Im not god =='

29. Are you close to 11?
Average? Someone to bitch with (:

30. Have you been to the movies with 4?
Yeah

31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
Nope. Never

32. Would you give 19 a hug?
Yeah! If she wants to. (:

33. When have you lied to 3?
Not even once i lied to her.

34. Is 11 good at socializing?
Why not?

35. Do you know a secret about 8?
Not any

36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
Audi FAM members

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
Not really close to each other

38. what's the worst thing about 6?
Can't think of anything!

39. Have you even had a crush on 12?
Though I'm a Bi. But that will never happen.

40. How long have you known 2?
Around 2.

41. Does 11 have any girlfriend/boyfriend?
Yup. For more than 1year. *jealous

42. Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
Yeah! When we broke up. But now we are friends. (:

43. Has 21 meet your parents?
No?

44. How did you meet 11?
Primary school friends

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
Does it count as a no if i cnt rmb?

46. Do you live close to 7?
Not at all?

47. What is 8's favourite food?
Duno!

48. What kind of car does 1 have?
He dont own a car!

49. Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
Nope

50. If you give 14 a $100 , What would she/he spend it on?
Clothes?

2009-04-19T02:30:00.003+08:00

Okay! Have been rather lazy to update blog recently.. Seen alot of candid shots of mine in kat's eleen's & siewlian's blog.crap..

Times had been bad.. Been feeling down recently. Complicated feelings, mood swings and been more bitchy than ever.. Took back the things I've gave clinton on Fri.. I throw everything into the bin. I rather feed the bin than give him those things. A polo tee. A Levi's boxer. A Calvin Klein's boxer. That's how worthless he is. (:

Decided not to have any strings attached. Kinda bored of things. Missing the times in holidays. Ton-ing out with friends and having chalets. Time were so fun then.. Just hope to have some time out to spare to spend out in the night playing and go crazy with my friends. But it won't be any sooner cause after my 6weeks module of lesson will be my attachment for 5months. That's how pathetic I am without any holidays.! Hoping to spare some time after graduation and go mad before working or continue my studies.

2009-04-03T22:02:00.007+08:00

Pictures taken during my birthday chalet.. [More to be updated]

2009-04-03T02:23:00.002+08:00

Mum took off the whole day. So she asked me out to Vivo to have a walk. Went Vivo for lunch then to Starhub and Singtel to check on my dateline of my line. Ending on o6o4o9. Gona change my line to Singtel and get a new phone. (: Can't wait for o7o4o9 to come. Thanks mum. Went Daiso for a shop to see if there's anything to buy. Bought some stuffs and went to Giant. I sat in the trolley. Mum pushed me. Rofl. I missed the times when I was small.. Its been a long long time I've been sitting in the trolley. Went to some chinese restaurant for dinner before heading home. Met Kat at Tiong mac around 1o.3opm to slack. Went for a supper at Lau Pa Sat with Kat, Elaine, Elaine's brother and cousin. Reached home at 12.30am cause mum wasn't happy as I told her I'll be back in 30minutes.

[Inner feelings]

I really am not sure what to do now. I really need you by my side. But you were never there for me. I'm really really sad. Really really disappointed. It seems like its of some retribution that I should recieve from the way I've treated u that time. I guess I'm never fated to have you.. No matter how hard I try to forget you. I still cannot get rid of you out of my mind. I really don't wish to give up just like that. Really feel like strangling myself..

2009-03-26T18:01:00.004+08:00

Just came home from chalet not long ago. Really had alot of fun this few days. Kept laughing like mad.

23o3o9 Monday
Met Sheilia at Vivo in the morning around 11am. Went over to Sentosa Information Counter to make my Islander's card. Then headed to Giant to the rest of the food I've not bought. Then took the things home to store before going to Woodlands to meet David to buy alcohol and charcoal. He helped out alot by helping me to drive in all the things into chalet. Came home around 9.3opm to collect my stuffs for chalet and to meet JianHui and Brandon to go into the chalet together. We cabbed in and slack around in there. We drank Bombay Sapphire while playing Daidi. Loser drink. Then JianHui and Brandon keep losing. They drink until whole body go red. Super funny laa! Then JianHui's action became so gay. His new name is gay boy.(: Later Sheilia gave me drink another 2 cup. I totally went high and drunk. Forgotten what happened next. I only know when I was awake from my drunk mode. I walked to the beach and sat there. Sheilia and Brandon pei me walked there. I was so quiet that they thought I was possessed. Awhile later I walked back to the chalet to change into my extra shirt and soaked myself into the swimming pool. Ate maggie mee after we came up..

24o3o9 Tuesday
Dont really remember what time we woke up. Only remembered we played some card games and slacked in the room. The game super funny can.. Peter came to the chalet at around 2plus. First time seeing him ( I've forgotten how was my feeling then ). Some things happened and I don't wish to think bout it again. *goosebumbs* Sheilia, Peter and Brandon helped to start the fire at around 5+ 6pm. People start to come in around 7+pm.. First to come was Katherine that group of friends. Soon i went to bathe before the thing started. 2nd to come was my mum.. 3rd was Louise and Amanda. 4th was Yucheng and his friend.. Katherine bought me a tube dress. Louise and Amanda bought me a wallet. Yucheng bought me a guess bag.. Thanks to all! I love you all!~ I'm sorry if I've left anyone out. But I doubt I have. Sorry to those who were not invited. I've get to cut my cake when Yucheng and friends arrived. Everyone at the chalet including to those who were staying there sang my happy birthday song. I was so touched. It was the first time when I almost cried on my birthday.. Thanks everyone.. Much thankss. Soon later Yucheng's friend Kenny helped to send Louise, Amanda and my mum out to take the bus back to Harbourfront. Later when i get back. They asked me to get the alcohol out to drink. Remembering that day only me and Jianhui was the one who drank the least.. Sheilia and Peter drank the most. That night alot of things happened.. 11 of us squeezed inside the small room to sleep. Jianhui was so afraid of Peter would do anything to me that he asked me to sleep with him.. Katherine was sleeping opposite of Brandon. His hair keep poking Kat till she dreamt of him when she's sleeping. Firstly she dreamt that she went into a zoo. She saw Brandon in the zoo. Dreaming of Brandon transforming into a polar bear with 3strands of hair. Followed by transforming into a poccupine(duno how to spell). Super funny.. Everyone there laughed like crazy. Later someone snored super loud and fast. Don't know which idiot go say he/she was dreaming that he/she was in a marathon.. (That night was really memorable). We joked and laugh till 6+am then everyone fell asleep..

25o3o9 Wednesday
Kat went off early as she had to work. Left Siew Lian, Yvonne, Elaine and Elaine's friend. They went to the beach along with Brandon, Sheilia and Peter. Not long later me and Jianhui went down to find them. Reach there then they say want go back. Crap.. Sheilia suggested to go Cafe Del'Mean to slack for awhile before going back.. So we went there to have some drinks and eat some snacks. Slacked there for awhile then went back to chalet. They went into the pool to play Monkey.. I went for 20mins tanning and went in.. (Tann machiam never tann. Cus still the same colour..) Around 4pm Siew Lian, Yvonne, Elaine and her friend went off to bathe as they had to meet their friend at vivo. I went back to bathe while Sheilia and Brandon went to tann for awhile more before bathing. After bathing went out to drink some vodka while Sheilia was bathing.. Drank finish the remains not knowing that I'll get drunk. Went back to the room to sleep.. Woke up and saw Jianhui was there. (Still remembering he was supposed to leave with Brandon..) He told me Sheilia went to fetch Huiyu and Darryl. He said I vomited and hugged onto the toilet bowl when i was drunk.. Dam malu bodoh.. Later we packed the room before Huiyu and Darryl come.. Had steamboat in the room..
(Bla Bla Bla...~~~)

26o3o9 Thursday
Its time to go home... Can't bare to go home.. Really had lots of fun there. Hope time will stop at that point of time.. Reached home and cooked spaghetti for Sheilia and Jianhui for lunch. Had lots of remaindings so we played 5-10-20 (guessing game). Jianhui ate the most. Super lousy.. Hahas. They left around 4plus. Left me alone.. Jianhui's whole body kena rash.. Went to buy rash cream and lotion for him and headed to Bedok. Was supposed to pass to Brandon and leave de. But kena cheat and was being brought to meet Jianhui. Wanted to run away but was caught by Brandon. Asshole! Stayed there till 11plus and took the last bus home..

(Final Edited on o3o4o9 at 2.20am)

2009-03-23T12:33:00.002+08:00

Will be in chalet for the next few days till thursday morning. Gona be a year older tomorrow. Wish me Happy Birthday. (: Have to rush to prepare and get the rest of the stuffs for my chalet le. Ciaos ~

I don't expect much

Just wanting someone to be there for me

To love me and care for me

I'll be more than happy

2009-03-21T11:11:00.002+08:00

Like I Always Do

You gave me a reason

It told me that I'll always be yours

You are my desire

My heart is so on fire for you

I cant stop loving you loving you oh no
Because i dont wanna end up in your rearview

Wanna be someone you can turn to

Baby i never wanna lose you

Theres nothing i wont do

So I'll watch you like a movie

I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story

If it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secret

Till tell you like a Joke

Its true its true

That I'll love you like I always do

Love you like i always do

Love you like like

You are so amazing

You stepped in and saved my life

Everytime we are together

My time is yours forever

My world is all yours
I dont wanna end up in your rearview

Wanna be someone you can turn to

Baby i never wanna lose you

Theres nothing i wont do

So I'll watch you like a movie

I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story

If it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secret

Till tell you like a joke

Its true its true

That ill love you like i always do

Baby ill never leave no ill never leave you

I will watch you like a movie

I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story

If it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secret

I'll tell you like a Joke

Its true its true

That I'll love you like i always do

I said im gonna love you yehh ohh

Im gonna love you

I said im gonna love you ohh ohh yehh

Ima love you like i always do

yehh yehh

I'm gonna love you

Love you like i always do

2009-03-21T10:32:00.004+08:00

RAWR!bloody hell. I'm bored to death. Its alrdy 210309 today! Gosh. 3more days I'll be a year older. Just wana stay young and childish. Still wana be playful. *tears* Time passes by so fast! Still remembering last year I've spent my birthday with Sherlyn, Alex and Sherlie at Boat Quey de pub. This year opening chalet in sentosa. My friends say people open chalet on their 18 birthday then i open when I'm 19. People also open their chalet either at pasir ris/east coast then i open at Sentosa. Now I shall reply to their questions. This is call unique. People always open chalet on a specific age and place it wont be new anymore. So I've chosen to be different from people.(:

Had been busy planning my chalet recently. Had to travel here and there to ensure I've not overspent on food and utensils due to under budget. ): Had some headaches on which group to invite. So I've decided to invite those i wana treasure and some of my secondary school friends along with my ite school buddies and some other friends. Sheilia accompanied me to Giant to check out the prices for the food and utensils on Thursday. Jianhui accompanied me yesterday to Sheng Shiong at Bedok to buy some food and utensils. He was kind enough to help me carry those stuffs home. Much thanks to the both of them. Loves~

Yesterday Jianhui was being an ass, he kept tickle me lurhs! Idiot. But still, if it wasn't him who help me to carry those stuffs back home. I think I'll die halfway back. Thanks! Yesterday after sending him to mrt and finish doing up my stuffs. I finally had the time to pack my house. It was in a total mess. Clothes weren't hang. The floor had not been vacuumed for a week. Books and notes were everywhere on my table. Gona find some time to clear up those secondary books. I need space for my things. Gona decorate my room. (:

Later gona meet mummy at vivo for dinner and to giant to buy the stove for bbq and get some food for chalet too. Over here, i wana thank mummy for sponsering some money for the chalet. Much thanks and love~

Was browsing through websites just now. LV came out with a new clutch. I want it so much cans! *Added into my wishlist!* hahas.

2009-03-18T17:16:00.002+08:00

Feeling rather complicated recently. I still can't figure out what I'm thinking at all. What do i really want? Days pass by each day. I'm getting older and older. Its time to wake up and start working on my life. I don't wish to carry on living aimlessly. I know that I wana earn big bucks for my future. So its time for me to start planning my life each day. Instead of slacking around and let time pass by each day. Guess its time to end everything that's stuck in my mind. I don't wish to stress myself anymore. I'm not gona care bout those meaningless stuffs anymore.. Its time to let go..

Going to shower soon and get myself started on doing my stuffs for my chalet. Tonight gona meet Louise for jogging. It had been awhile since i last jogged le. Got to start working out before I cnt get my aim by the end of the year.

Resolution for March and April

1. Pack my messy room

2. Throw away all unwanted stuffs

3. Try to psycho mummy to repair my lousy computer

4. Control my mouth from bitching bout people

5. Lose 8kg

6. Save $250

2009-03-14T14:51:00.003+08:00

seems like i've not been blogging for years.

alot of things happened since i last blogged.

xiuming went ns yest.

yest went to rebond my hair at chapter 2.

costed me 360+.

argh!

having chalet on my bdae.!

cnt wait for it to come (:

date:23 to 26march'09

venue: sentosa, costa sands resort(superior room)

anyone wana come contact me!

2009-02-13T07:43:00.002+08:00

blog under construction.
will not be able to predict when it'll be done.
depends on my computer. (:
still not gona update any sooner.
really duno what to write.
will write when i feel like it..

i love him..

yes i do..

2009-02-10T13:24:00.002+08:00

Just created a new private blog.

Will be MIA-ing..

Takire peeps.

I'll appear when I feel like it..

2009-02-01T18:32:00.008+08:00

3oJano9 FRIDAY

School started at 11am.Had lab maths in comp lab today.We get to use Microsoft Exel to do graph.had learnt it during secondary school.So it was quite easy for me bahss.After school ME SZE and SHEILIA went Cafe1 for lunch.Headed to library to use computer cause SHEILIA had to do her resume for aunty FONG.Slacked in the library till 2pm then went to front gate smoke smoke before going for QC&A lab test.ME and SZE get to teamed for test.At least both of us had accompany.SHEILIA had to do the test alone.Cause she was doing the different test from us.ME and SZE went to meet TOBI.Cause he asked me along to his friend's birthday party.Me and SZE was hoping to see some shuai ge(s).But ended up all look abit sot sot de.ME and SZE left there at around 7.30pm and headed to JP to meet YX.Cause his birthday coming soon.Then wanted to buy him something and give him.ME and SZE went back to the disney shop to make our bag tags.DAM CUTE LA!!(:

Then I bought a soft toy for YX.But he ended work at 11pm.Too bad i left at 10pm.Cause its getting late.HMM!.Never mind.I shall keep the soft toy for MYSELF! (:

i kept thinking of him today.

i message him.

no replies.

i waited and waitedd..

i won't give up..

always remembering blue is his favorite colourr.

31Jano9 SATURDAY

Went Sentosa with SZE today.Got there at around 3pm.Reached Siloso beach for awhile then it drizzled.PUI!what the heck sia.Went under the shelter for awhile and it stopped.Moved back to the beach.SZE kept splash me with sea water.Make me keep pui saliva laa!Erxin dabian.Not long later it rained.PUI PUI PUI!sucky sia.Went back to the tent and play daidi.Went to bathe around 5plus.Headed to Bugis for dinner with mummy.Went Cineleisure to watch Love Matters.Dam funny la!Laugh until stomach pain.

He finally replied my message.But things aren't getting better.He still wana forget me.WHY?Am i really that sucky?I love him.I love him alot.Yes i do.I really dun wana leave him.I dun wana him leave me too!.Why is GOD so unfair to me?Why GOD always take away my love oness?

o1FEBo9 TODAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YX!

Slacked at home today.Life is so bored.I need him to be there for me.I still misses him.I can't get rid of him in my mind.I miss the times when he was always there for me.The attention he gave me will never be replaced.I need him.I love him.I miss him.I want him..The love I have for him.Will never be replaced.I'll always rememeber those loving words we said to each other.Cause i really do love him..

Tomorrow going Bugis with SZE to buy our bags.FINALLY!(:

2009-01-29T22:09:00.003+08:00

26Jano9. MONDAY

its 1st day of chinese new year.mummy's fren came my house early morning.they talked so loud until wake me up norss.weisze came over my house to bai nian at 5?gave her eat spaghetti still wan complain too watery.PUI!then we went out to bugis at 6plus to buy her bag.she bought this sling bag for 28bucks.same pricing as my big bag.lols!after buying she felt not worth.cus the difference very big :x after buying her bag.we headed down to jurong point.cus i planned to mit xm to pass him his present and chocolates.met him around 1o.3opm.then pei him his sis and some other people to shell to buy their cigg.buy finish le he say his ahgong ask them back to eat meefen.so nbm norr.me and sze waited at the void deck.wait for 5min then i suggested if she wana drink.so we went back to shell to buy some alcohol.waited for another 45mins then he say he dunwan mit me to get his stuffs cus he dulan parents for scolding him.then nbm norr.me and sze headed down to lakeside to meet her friend timothy.i called up yx to meet us too cus was feeling down.when we reached lakeside.i went to buy another 2bottle of alcohol.soon xm msg me ask me whr am i.he wanted to meet me.so he came along.we slacked at the stairs behind the mrt station.awhile more i went to buy another bottle of hooch.smoked alot that day also.so became super high.then did something that i regretted.i actually supported myself on xm's shoulder.bud he avoided.so i leaned on yx's lap.cus was really very giddy.bud we continued playing daidi.yx went home at 2am.sent him to take cab then went back to play another 2rounds before going home.before taking cab.me and xm was fine de.bud when i reached home.he msg me saying its over.i fucking regretted leaning on yx's lap.if i knew this will happen.i rather have my head aching then losing him.bud no matter wad i do now will never let him forgive me again.i cried bud no one cares.im hurt but still no one cares.it was a total toture to me.i love him.i knew that i love him.but it wun change the fact that he's gona leave me.i begged and promised.but he still wont forgive me.i felt so tortured.and that nite i got a hell lot of scolding from my mum for reaching home late.how i wish i didnt stayed at lakeside.how i wish i didnt ask yx down.how i wish we can be still loving as before.

27jano9. TUESDAY

2nd day of chinese new year.was being nagged to wake up from my sleep.she's still angry with me for reaching home late the day before.i really dun understand why.its only once in awhile.why does she need to be so aggitated.ARGH!headed to my nai ma house at 1plus 2.ate lunch at her house.her cooking is always the best!i love her cookinggg!she cooked curry chicken for me for dinner and my fave lotus soup.gosh.!i love her to bits.slept at her house at 3plus.was really tired.woke up around 6plus cus dinner is almost ready.stayed there till around 10plus then headed home to sleep.

28jano9. WEDNESDAY

school started.weisze never go school.she ps-ed me!pui!i went school for pe test then went to bedok to meet wj for lunch.headed back to school at 12.was late for gm lecture.sheilia came school to accompany me for lesson.love her mans!had gm practical at 2.aunty fong was kind to let us off at 4pm.first time sia.gosh.!then we headed to jurong to meet weisze to study for maths test.me and sheilia went to take our dinner.sze reach le then we headed to jurong library to study.couldn't get the mood to study.so played daidi in the library.studied for a few minutes then stop le.hahas.saw this person in the library.then me and sheilia bet if that person is a girl or a guy.i bet that person is a she.then sheilia bet that person is a he.who lose give who cigg.then i was right.the person is a she.wahahha!then sheilia spawn me cigg.hmss.stayed in the library till 8.30.then sze asked me if i had a ex staying in jurong.she called up timothy and ask for his name.yeah.it was eben.fucked up.finally found him.but its of no point.cus i know he'll never return me the money.hais.went down to lakeside to meet timothy to talk bout the matter until 11pm.still not settled.but he promised me to ask the cbk for the money.headed home..

29jano9 TODAY!

reached school late for 30mins.went QC&A lesson.they're having test.PUI!dun even know how to do sia.did 2qtns nia.lesson ended early.so went to c1 to eat chicken rice.LLA was free period today.we were given time to do our own things.so i went to sleep.was freaking tired.after lesson while walking to library.the fragrant smell from cafe heaven attracted me in for lunch.had spaghetti with pork chop.their spaghetti is as lousy as before.went library after eating.fell asleep after studying for awhile.went for maths test.couldnt do the last 2qtns.can pass can le bahss.dun expect much.school ended at 3pm today.went to bugis with sze to see bag.we decided to buy this pink bag.going back bugis to buy tmr.yeah yeah.!wana buy more bags!hehe.headed to jurong point to meet timothy.last min say his friend coming.was very dulan.last min another person pop out.nbm bahss.then was supposed to watch love matter at 6.45pm de.then the idiot timothy keep drag time never buy then ended up buying the tic at 7.15pm derhs.was about to go in for movie.he tell me say eben coming.he totally spoilt my mood.bastard sia.then say eben aso watching movie.wth sia.then ended up when eben reached he keep talking to them.then let me and sze wait there like one idiot sia.pui!then later they come and ask if we wana go in to watch the movie.the movie alrdy pass 30mins norr.go in for wad sia.at that point of time me and sze was boiling.so we went off to smoke.awhile later i asked timothy to meet up alone to talk.so he came to explained himself.so everything was fine le.met darling after that.slacked awhile then headed home.tmr gona end after 3.3opm.bored sia!siens!

there's something wrong with my computer.so i might not be able to update blog at times..

2009-01-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
MAY ALL UR WISHES COME TRUE!

STAY HAPPY AND HEALTHY PEOPLE!

HOPE EVERYONE WILL BE ABLE TO FIND THEIR TRUE LOVE!
AND LASTLY!
WEIXUAN LOVES YOU ALL!

XOXOXOXOXO!

2009-01-25T06:22:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary,

Is there any way to turn time back? I really dun wana lose him. I can practically do anything just to have him to forgive me. My life almost practically revolves around him. I felt so dark when he said he wana leave me. I just wish to have him by my side and be with him. I just wish to have a stable and last forever relationship with him. Is that really so hard? I realised that I've done the BIGGEST mistake to make him sad and disappointed over what I did. I felt the importance of him in my life. Promising him never to visit his blog or do anything that relates to him. I just need the last chance for him to forgive me. And i swear that I'll try my best never to disappoint him again. Thats all I need. My mood changes anytime when he says thing that will make any impact on me. When he says I love you, I smiled as though I'm the most fortunate person on earth. When he ignores me, I felt so dark just wishing that I can isolate myself in one corner to cry. When he says he wana leave me, I feel as though there's nothing on earth can make me happy anymore. My heart shattered when he ignored me and asking his mum to bluff me that he's out and asked me to stop calling me. At that moment, I felt hopeless in life. I felt that there's no hope in my life anymore.

Dear diary, I need him. I really do..

Feeling lost and hopeless

2009-01-25T01:08:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

Its been awhile since i last blogged. I'm sad and hurt badly. I'm lost. He left. I'm all alone now. All I need is him to forgive me. Though I know it will never happen. Now, with all those broken promises. I dont know what I'm aiming in my life anymore. I will never believe in love again. It sucks so bad. The scars left will never be healed. Now, my heart feels as if it has been stabbed and shattered in to bits and pieces which will never be fixed back by anyone except him. All those words that were said were being taken back. There's no such thing as true love. There's no such thing as last forever. I'll never believe this anymore.

I know I'm going to change and I will. A better girl or a bitchy girl, I'm not sure. But im 99% sure that I'll change to the worst I can be. No more nice side of weixuan. No more soft hearted and kind weixuan. Its all over. No happy ending. No trust. No promises.

Say BYE BYE to the nice weixuan and HI to the evil and hateful weixuan.

Bye diary..

2009-01-19T00:19:00.003+08:00

boring!

almost died at home dis 2 days.

afta what happened.

it seemed that me and him de relationship turned beta.

hope this will last forever.

tmr is proj presentation.

my group like never do anyt.

lols!

cfm die.

pray tmr will drag.

so can present on thurss instead. (:

the ans for yest's question is:

stupid weixuan will jump off the boat.

why?

cus clever weixuan doesnt exist.

farkk taizi.

say me.

PUI!

2009-01-17T10:18:00.003+08:00

TO: VINN~

-if u happen to pass by my blog-

i cnt see ur blog.

my comp got problem reading ur script.

change eh ):

cnt read!!

2009-01-17T10:08:00.002+08:00

neck stiff.

headache.

giddy.

woke up in a terrible state.

friends scolded me stupid.

i guess i really am.

bud its was becus i trusted him.

it was the first time that i was so serious in someone.

where i made and kept so many promises.

bud i guess no matter what i do it wont make any diff bahss.

taizi ask me a qtn last nite.

there is a clever weixuan and a stupid weixuan on a sinking boat.

guess who will jump off the boat first?

the answer will be announced tmr.

2009-01-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

mood swing until super jialat.
my mood changes everytime cus of him.
wed sheilia see me sad until pat my head.
i tired to smile when i was on the way back home with them.
bud it seems so fake.

i was really happy though.

at least she noticed and didnt attitude me.

i tried my very best to not tink so much.

but i just kept thinking.

i duno whats wrong with me.

my heart is aching so painfully.

i somehow jus feel like ending everything.

i feel like giving up on myself.

bud i'll do my best to keep the promises i made no matter wad.

lots and lots of thoughts.

duno how to post.

i'll stop blogging before i started crying again.

*poof*

2009-01-13T01:49:00.003+08:00

given up..

带我走到遥远的以后带走我一个人自转的寂寞

2009-01-12T09:07:00.003+08:00

complicated feelings.

i dun even know my actual feelings.

it was a mistake that i didnt see his true colours earlier.

it was a mistake for knowing him.

it was a bigger mistake for liking him.

eggy was right.

i so buang.

not as if he will like me.

i must be dreaming.

not even anyone will like me.

just feel like giving up on myself.

guess its true that buangsters will never get their true love.

maybe im just fated to be single and not being loved by anyone.

2009-01-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

SPEECHLESS

2009-01-11T01:19:00.003+08:00

now i noe that he's just a big fat liar.!

thank god i get to know the truth now.

i had to give up.

its hard to accept the fact.

bud i noe i have to.

told dabian from now.

if i cnt find anyone i love and vice versa.

i gona stay single for life.

i dunwan marry.

dunwan find bf.

just wana be alone.

then grow up got money i go abopt one twins.

then see dabian get married.

i happy le.

lols.

rethard rites?

hmss.

ive given up le.

i chose it this way.

and i'll make it happen.

ive totally given up.

no point continuing get bluffed.

i need no one.

2009-01-10T17:39:00.003+08:00

my scenses were woken up.

was being lectured.

thans to cher and eggy.

i love them loads.

now i know what to do lerhs.

thans loads.

CNY coming soon.

can take ang bao again.

wahaha!

can go shopping aso.

yay yay!

boredom!

i hate this feeling.

when can i find my real love?

hais..

2009-01-09T23:49:00.004+08:00

i guess afterall.
im still not of any importance to u.
i naively think that u loved me.
i naively feels that we are togther.
but i realised.
it seems that we arent togther.
i cnt stop myself from tearing.
i cnt stop myself from thinking of u.
its just my retribution i guess.
i really feel like giving up on myself.

u said u wana attention.
i give u.
u said u wana people to cook for u.
i will.
u said u wana people to love u whole heartedly.
im willing.
but everyting seems to be not right.
mayb its me who think too much.
mayb its me who dun have faith in myself.

and.
u just cnt seem to forget them.
yeah.
i noe im not chio.
i noe im buang.
i guess its just my fate.

2009-01-08T06:31:00.002+08:00

just edited my skin again.

its so freaking cute canss!

damm pissed now.

freaking woke up at 6.

then mum keep say i dunwan sleep use comp.

freak la!

whats her problem sia.

off to prepare for school le.

school is boring with a lesson at 8am.

to:andy♥

i really duno what happened to u in such a short period of time.

i just want to let u know that you are not always alone.

u still have me.

u still have Neko Darling.

we will always be there for u.

hope u'll feel beta after a few days.

2009-01-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

OMG!

my comp is being repaired finally!(:

HURRAYS!

done downloading audi le.

hahahs..!

bored siol.

duno wad to blog.

school reopened.

trying to make the effort to go to school.

arbo cant go for attachment.

shyt aunty fong.

arghs!

wadever.

been running on sat and mon with louise.
jog non stop.

improvements!

lols.

hoping to have my dream come true! (:

a sudden decision for all these is for him.

2009-01-02T16:55:00.002+08:00

THIS IS THE LAST TIME IM GOING TO SAY.

PEOPLE!

IF U FCUKING HATE ME.

WHY BOTHER COMING TO MY BLOG?

U TINK I GIVE A SHIT BOUT WHO ARE U?

U TINK I GIVE A SHIT THAT I LIKE U?

THE ANS IS NO!

U NOT HAPPY U CAN JUST FCUK OFF!

I ONLY APRRECIATE PPLE WHO LOVES ME AND TREASURE ME.

STOP TRYING TO DO STUPID THINGS TO BREAK MY FRIENDSHIPS WITH MY LOVED ONES.

I CAN TELL U ITS NO USE.

2009-01-02T12:32:00.002+08:00

TO: ANONYMOUS

THANS FOR TAGGING ME!(:
i just wana tell u this.
i emo ur fcuking business har?
i dun even give a shit that u wana care.
cus ure no one to me..

hmss.
u dun like me?
then fcuk off..
not as though i love u wad.
read my disclaimer before tagging.

people who truely respect me and know my char will love me.
or ur jus plain jealous that u have no true friends to love u?
i guess im right.(:
to me..
i believe that true friends dun BYTCH and STAB people behind people's back.
not like u.
instead LEARN from my neko darling!

and
THANS TO U.
i scolded my darling for noth!
bud i wana thank u for letting us quarrel.
this let me know who was true to me.
we patched cus we treasure each other.
from here i wana say.
I LOVE MY NEKO DARLING!

and.
i hong got ur business meh?
not as if u dun hong what?
or ure jealous?
say la!
dun nid ka pple jw de.
i wun blame u for not having a life. (:

hmss.
thans uhs!
i know im a attention seeker.
bud i only seek attention from the people i love.
unlike u.
u no one to seek attention from rite?
pity u.
bud i wun bother to seek attention from a bytch like u...

2008-12-29T00:29:00.003+08:00

i feel so shity now.

i jus feel like giving up.

i really hate the way i feel noww!

i really duno if its worth it.

kat says he like me.

bud i dun feel so.

i know he doesnt.

and he dont..

HAIS!

irritating.

idiotic.

mayb i should jus treat him as my fren.

i tink i should..

2008-12-29T00:17:00.003+08:00

no mood to blogg!

come back another day...

he's back from vietnam finally...

2008-12-24T13:48:00.002+08:00

TMR IS CHRISTMAS DAYYYYY!!!
10HOURS 12MINUTES TO GO!!!!~~~

2008-12-24T12:51:00.004+08:00

TUESDAY to FRIDAY

where did i go ne?

forget le..

SATURDAY

mummy de bf went back to AUS.

sent him to airport.

went to T3 for dinner.

went to meet BENBEN at cine after sending him off.

slacked at cine there with them until 10plus.

TERRY went tentric.

ME and BENBEN went to ps to meet KATHERINE.

ANDREA and KENNETH came.

slacked at bunk.

(ERICA JUSTIN BENBEN KENNETH ANDREA KATHERINE BENSON & ME)

stay there talk rubbish and play psp.

(sun)

went to kopitiam for supper.

then headed to evo for lan.

BENBEN and KENNETH went back early.

ME and ANDREA went off at around 5plus and headed to speedy.

around 6plus sth happened.

headed back to EVO.

around 7 take bus go home....

SUNDAY

stayed at home and rot..

MONDAY

stay at home play audi.

boredd~

kena scolded by mummy..

LONG STORY~.

TUESDAY

went out to meet NIC.

went hereen to buy YUCHENG de xmas present.

then headed to central to buy more xmas presents!

bought CUPS!

cup for YUCHENG

cups for SHERLYN & ALEX.

cup for KATHERINE.

cup for BENBEN

cup for NIC.

CUPS DAY!(:

went home to put down those presents.

cus too heavy!.

went to batok to pass YUCHENG his present.

he's leaving sg for vietnam for hols.

so good ~~

*jealous*

at nite he msged me telling me dhat he liked the cup!

ask KAT help me buy another EEYOREEEE!

hehe.

for who ne?

*SECRET*

cus i duno give who aso.

TODAYYY~~!

yucheng left sg dis morning.

he msged me before he left.

*happy*

gona miss him uhss!

waiting for mummy to finish work.

then go NTUC buy ingredients for STEAMBOATT!

going out tonite.

duno whr.

lalalal~~

i love u so so so so much!! (:

2008-12-16T19:29:00.004+08:00

ton-ed on sat and sunday.

never sleep for 2 days.

last nite ton again.

shagg sia.

SATURDAY

at nite went out with TOBI they all.

was supposed to watch movie.

never watch cus TOBI and SHAUN quarrelled.

(sun)

went for supper then to lan.

went to DELI's house after lan to play majong.

now know abit bout majong le.

FINALLY.

SUN

left DELI's house around 11plus with PPC.

rushed home to meet SZE for work.

reached home at 12.

rushed and left house at 12.45 lidat.

fetch YUCHENG from commonwealth taxi stand.

reached work at 1.15.

job was super slack.

ME and SZE went toilet take photos slack slack.

(left)ME, (right)SZE

(top)YUCHENG.

job ended at 5plus.

SZE went to meet her bf.

then ME and CHENG took mrt.

he ps-ed me to meet his parents for dinner.

i headed to bugis to meet LULU for dinner.

slacked there till 9.

lulu went home.

i headed to katong mall to meet TOBI.

duno for wat.

i felt so fucking regretted meeting him.

fuckk!

(monday)

then after awhile.

he say wan go tentric with me to meet ANDREA.

we took bus then change mrt to tanjong pagar.

reached maxwell market.

den he say want eat.

zzz.

pei him eat lurhs.

went to tentric after that.

TERRY asked me if he's my bf.

its like obviously NO!.

after ROY end work.

we headed to river valley for supper.

had roti prata.

headed home around 5plus..

and its qiqi's birthday.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

got to see qiqi.

she super sweet looking.

bud never u should make her angry..

MONDAY

woke up at 6.

went to bugis for dinner with MUMMY and her bf.

headed to tamp at 10 to meet ANDREA and her bf, HUBERT.

(tues)

slacked there until 12.45

took cab to tentric.

so freaking ex sia..

$26.40

money fly sia..

waited for ROY to end work then went for supper behind tentric.

took cabby to merridian for lan.

ANDY was there waiting for roy and TERRY to reach.

played audi.

got to know SAMMY didi.

went home around 9plus.

took cabby with ANDREA home.

TODAY

woke up at 5plus.

not enuf sleep sia.

feel like sleeping again.

going out soon to meet mummy for dinner..

2008-12-13T17:11:00.002+08:00

i really tink that i cnt take it anymore.

i love him.

yes i do.

though i noe he doesnt.

i really duno what to do anymore.

i noe love cnt be forced.

i noe we'll never be together.

bud i jus dun wish to let it go so easily.

GOD!help me please.. ):

2008-12-13T00:21:00.003+08:00

im feeling SO SO SO SO SO SO fucked up now.

I FUCKING REGRETTED LIKING U THAT TIME!

I FUCKING REGRETTED BUYING U THAT VEST!

it was a BIG mistake from the beginning.

i SHOULDNT have know u.

i SHOULDNT have contacted u again.

FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK

THE FEELING REALLY SUCKS!

and NOW.

u HAVE a girlf.

then show me attitude.

wtf is dis sia.

IM NOT UR DOG OKAYSS!

i will NEVER NEVER fall for u again.

2008-12-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

jus reached home from mummy boyf's house.

was supposed to ton today.

but never le.

everyone were feeling tired today.

im going to knock out soon.

shall type finish asap.

MON

went out to ps with TOBI, WEILI, ERICA, and some others.

get to know that all of them noes ANDREA.

so coincidence sia.

so decided to meet ANDREA in the night.

headed home with kat at around 10.45pm.

then waited for mummy and her boyf to leave home.

they was like looking at photos.

i wait until dam dulan sia.

finally they left at around 11.45pm.

(tues)

left home at 12mn and headed to maxwell to find ANDREA.

got to know her AJ friends.

they so cute canss!

gosh..

waited for ROY to end work at around 3+.

headed to speedy at merridian.

played audi with them.

and slacked till 9am.

TERRY left early cus he got school at 9am.

walked to a malay stall for breakfast after lan

then ROY say wan go buy slipper at orchard.

so walked to cineleisure lurhs.

the shop still close ehss..

then ROY say..

GO HOME!

gahh..

then went home and decided to sleep for 1hr lurhs.

but who knows i cnt wake up..

so was absent from school on tues.

slept until night 8pm.

WED

CK's birthday.

went to The Cafe Cartel with the group for celebration at night.

slacked until 10plus then went to bunk's smoking area to slack.

was super funny uhs..

CK had his birthday mission.

around 11plus pei them walk to evo.

left there around 11.45 lidat.

reached home at 12.05mn.

THURS

went to mustafa to buy hair dye with SZE after school.

then she come my house help me dye hair.

she so good canss!

*mwacks!

hahas.

then went pei her walk to mrt at 9plus.

TODAY

was supposed to go out with ANDREA after her work.

then SZE say she very tired le.

then ANDREA say she went to send VIN to camp today very tired.

lucky never go out.

or else i'll die on the road.

due to lack of sleep.

2008-12-08T14:24:00.003+08:00

watching son of the mask now.

jus woke up not long ago.

yest was packing the house the whole day.

slept at 2plus 3.

mummy went to meet her bf early in the morning.

left me alone at home with no money.

was looking through friendster jus now.

found out that Kat got bf lerhs..

everyone around me got bf/gf.

dorts canss.

BORED UHSS!!

wana find a bf too... ):

i know u'll never accept me.

but its ok..

2008-12-06T20:27:00.004+08:00

last nite ws had to have dinner at home.

so met hawk at ps for dinner instead.

was late for 45mins.

hahas.

headed to raffles after ws reached ps.

met sheilia at raffles then headed to the pub.

had martell.

soon sheilia's fren, vanessa, came.

she quite cute sia..

small small size derhs..

hahas.

slack there halfway sheilia gf came and join us.

drank there until 1plus 2.

then decided to change pub.
cont drinking.

ordered tequila sprite and vodka sprite.

got offer uhss!

2 jug for 50bucks.

its dam worth.

slacked till morning then took cabby home..(:

hopped on to this cab.

the uncle dam cute sia.

we chatted until i reached home.

my voice went crazy.

i couldnt even talk.

rawrss!

2008-12-05T15:27:00.003+08:00

yest went polyclinic see doc.

lungs kena infected.

was given 2days mc.

bud went for 1 lesson today.

see i so guai.

hahas!

today feeling much better le.

morning meet ws on train to go for lesson.

lesson was boring.

sit there slack.

class end le went locker.

den eric came ask if wan play daidi.

so stayed there play awhile.

went off around 11.45.

headed to tm with ws.

pei her go buy studs.

then met clement awhile.

went home soon after meeting him.

took mrt home with ws.

now waiting for her come find me.

then can go bugis shop shop le.

tonight going celebrate sheilia's birthday at boat quey.

should be tonning till morning bahs...

2008-12-03T23:09:00.003+08:00

was absent from school yest.

cus was feeling really really sick.

so rested at home the whole day.

at night mummy help me buy flu medicine and drink.

the drink super super bitter canss!

yuckss..

eat le sumore no effect.

sucks lurhs..

until now still sick.

now worst.

started coughing.

arghss!!.

today meet ws on the train before going school.

then took train to temp to meet cy and headed to school.

was late abit nia.

den teacher not happy.

crazy...

played psp in class.

lesson ended quite early.

so walked to test room slowly..

pract test was easy.

went bugis to buy lashes with ws and cy.

walk halfway mummy called to complain.

she say aunty fong called her.

fucker sia she.

try to sabo me.

say wad i never attend for test yest.

na bueyyy!

test got 2 days.

not as if i never go for test today.

knn lurhss!

yest sick wan me go there do lab work.

she tink i superwoman isit.

not everyone is like her manss!

wun get sick one.

insane fong..

walked until 7 lidat then pei cy take mrt back to bedok.

ws took mrt straight home cus she tired.

then i alighted at bugis to find xyler and lenus.

went for dinner then slacked there until 10pm.

took bus home..

feeling really sickk~

2008-12-02T04:03:00.005+08:00

jus finished changing my blog skin.

dam bored.

duno what to do.

still cant find the type of skin i want.

CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO MAKE A DAMNNN SKINN!?????

edited the script with loads of pop-out.

trying to irritate my friends coming in my blog..

heh!

sorriess!

just for fun of it..

i'll remove when i gets irritated.

just scanned through his blog.

boiling now!!

RAWRS!

felt so unfair sia.

FARKK! FARK FARK FARK!

damn it.

i wasnt treated the same way.

i'll spit saliva on him if i can now.

just now went meet mummy for dinner.

was suprised that her bf came along.

mummy said she ignored him the whole day cus she was angry.

he realised..

so he followed her.

rofl.

funny..!

aniw.

went rajah inn to eat steamboat.

we spent ridiculously alot for 3 people.

the bill was $49.

wo de tian ahh~~

the prices there are increasing alot..

jus now went to buy some sterile water for my ear.

it inflamed.

now it'll also hurt by touching it lightly.

arghss!

feel like piercing somemore lurhss..

feeling irritated by my school proj.

was editing the layout for the website.

its pissing me off mans.

im sick and i still have to do this.

wth siaa!

AHHHHSSSS!!!~~~

I WANT YOU

2008-12-01T19:26:00.003+08:00

Sat morning went back home to sleep after eating breakfast with lenus and xyler.

then went for dinner with mummy at night.

fell asleep after reaching home.

was dam sick.

woke up on sun at around 10.30am.

i feel dam pig lurhss.. x.x

slacked at home cus still sick.

went to rent dvd to spend my time.

super boring canss..

today reached school late for 30mins.

lesson was like dam boring.

den daniel started to act rethard.

he used my domo pouch to start fliming.

his rethardedness spreaded to me lurhss..

den i started going crazy with him.

class ended around 5.30

took mrt back wih weisze chuyun and daniel.

feeling super sick.

flu, headache and earblock

2008-11-29T05:42:00.002+08:00

just reached home not long ago.

lenus & xyler came over my house to sleep for awhile.

st james was boring canss!

left there around 12.15 to catch a movie at cine.

wanted to watch KM31.

but the tix all sold out.

so we decided to watch WildChild.

the show very nice canss!

touchingg..

rating 4/5.

mayb later go watch KM31 bahs.(:

dun tink will ton tonite lerhss..

2008-11-28T15:00:00.002+08:00

yest went out with weisze and chuyun to bugis after test.

walk walk awhile den pei chuyun take bus back to bedok.

took train home with weisze.

lended her my memory card.

den she played my DJMax in her psp.

then it RESTARTEDD!!

sobss.

sadded!

met tobi at tiong at 7.

headed to ps for dinner.

then watched Body Of Lies at 9.30pm.

the ending i catch no balls sia!

then tobi pei me walked to hereen to pass clothes to mummy.

went home after that.

boring day sia..

tsk tsk.!

later meeting hawk at 9..

siens..

I WANA DRINK!

its time to get drunk tonite!♥